Monday, December 7, 2009
Description of Peace Corps Service
Pre-service training
Assignment
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
The Last Days
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
shedding possessions
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Two weeks left!
Now I have one week of classes and saying goodbye, one week of packing and then it's on the train/bus to Germany and airplane back to America.
Of course many mixed feelings, but overall ready for a change, and really anxious to get back to some academics.
Have some other blog entries saved on my computer, but I always forget to put them onto my flash drive.
It's been raining for weeks, and will rain into the foreseen future.
Really wish I had time to apply for a few more jobs, but school first. I'll get all these applications off on December 1st, and then focus on finding employment from now until school starts.
Carrot cake smells like it's ready, so I'm off to the kitchen...
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Reflection
Well I’ll attach my official description of service soon, but until then, let me say a few things in response to
“how was it?”
For the surest answer, read earlier entries in this blog. But of course all experiences are changed by analysis’s hindsight. As for my thoughts now, they are poorly seasoned and relatively bland.
I would do it all over again, of course very differently. I’ve learned more about myself then anyone learned about English, me or America.
I made positive changes, after I was relatively fluent in Ukrainian and only where I had strong and close community support. I only wish that language was the largest obstacle.
I have many new friends.
This reflection is still premature.
It needs more seasoning.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Time and Opportunity
Algerian font matches
out of proportion feelings
time running out
running running out
Violined OUt
calm inner self
transition
opportunity time
Breath
Make lists
accomplish tasks
all will be done in thy
time is plenty
but still
it’s gotta all come out
Rant
old clothes ragtime
new clothes giveaway
few clothes bringaway
red clothes run
Campstove sell
sleeping bag roll
music stand donate
notebook gift
trophy soccer jersey
duct tape
books
But all that doesn’t even compare to the time and energy I need to say goodbye
not for a time
a few months
see u on facebook
but years, maybe forever, and you don’t even have email
I doubt you can afford to pay international postage
Fortitude seems unfair
I was accepted, trusted and part of their town
now I just go?
"all my hopes for you to settle down here for good
bring your parents too!
it’s just as I suspected
Despite all his words
look at him an all his opportunities
he’ll make a decent living with half the sweat I do
24 and he can still mess around as if he were 17
hasn’t even started his career yet"
And then there’s the newlyweds on the bus
Ivan says he had a great English teacher in his village school
She’s dead now, Гірник graveyard
Ivan has worked 500meters underground
four years down
twenty one to go
mine #9
electrical engineer
$300/month
coal
three months married
Natalia wants to get pregnant
he says she just doesn’t understand
the financial pressure
of having a kid
they’ve been talking about that new factory for six years
I have no choice
the mine or drugs
a hard life or no life
I can’t believe you are here
I don’t care about the election
Проти Всі!
Take my number
call me
you are a good person
May God Give You Happiness
Goodbye
That sure puts my silliness in perspective
How lucky I am
Life is just shining down on me
a gift of time and opportunities
thank you
but why me?
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
October 7th
‘If only’s never get you anywhere
but…
no, I won’t dwell
stinky excuses
soccer is frustrating
because I don’t practice
because my Achilles is not healthy
because I haven’t taken 3 months off to cross train
because I don’t have access to cross-training facilities
one more game
wow, how stinky these excuses are
after all, what equipment do I need to do yoga?
short-timers disease
the beginning of
the new
failure to make due
looking farther than
my horizons
2 months to a swimming pool
Cleanup project this weekend a great success!
70 kids, teachers, and politicians
2 tons of trash
350kg of glass bottles
6 anti-littering signs
but most importantly
I did much less work than last time
which means
the kids are getting it
how to organize
delegate and support each other
empowerment through youth led development
small project design and management
next up
getting the movie theatre up and running
through some sort of club
keep going
I’m good at pushing through
but it’s going to be a shock
when one day
baby roots ripped up
put back in the 2003 hole
grow now?
too many leaves
pages of experiences
torn tubers
can I make the project design and management club
self-sustaining?
if not, what was the point?
people still litter
cut down trees
forget how HIV transmits
or neglect to inform their teenagers how to use a condom
Ha!
that old dream
immortality
as if one person could change the world
but oh they can
but not without proper commitment and preparation
both of which I will
in the end
fail to demonstrate here
back to school I go
for preparation
and commitment
will make a home
without the escape backdoor
back to where?
“wont you go back”
they’ll ask
back to my white skinned American male advantaged
rung on the opportunity ladder
No man
“I wont go”
because I don’t want to
I can’t
I’ve witnessed too much
and I refuse to take my wrongful place
in the unjust system
on a rotten ladder
to that false red “developed” fruit
progress and better quality of life
Open your eyes
I try
so many truths competing
left center right
economics a force for good?
the power of greed harnessed?
at least the system acknowledges selfishness
but why are environmentalists so single minded?
I hate the leftist exaggerations
that corporations are evil, as if they are giant monsters
and not merely the combined greed of thousands
no, combined good intention, to work and provide for her family
normal and natural on an individual basis
but when combined, capable of truly externalizing the social costs of exploitation
the investment in guns, oil, gold and metals
so distant from the people who have a stock
willing or not
Can’t you see that the richest countries are also the cleanest?
It is only when people have basic comforts
then they worry about picking up trash
what do you care
at your computer
Minimizing pollution
being less bad
than that guy in the hummer
what have you done today to eliminate poverty?
get on the phone already
with your senator congressmen state politician folks
but better yet
I don’t know
take a sign and stand by the road on your lunch break?
organize a flash mob outside REI?
too much intention
not enough action
Your country is doing things
do you know what they are?
what are my brothers doing in
why can’t they be planting trees, building schools and teaching kids English slang?
why are they crawling through caves and hunting men?